Setu: Who named me 'Khushi'?

Lata Hirani

Shea's legs were hurtling along with mechanical hiccups. His mind kept asking him a question. 'Why did you name me Khushi?' He started hating his name. When mom would call him by name, his fur would catch fire. A scream would come to his throat and stop. That day dad brought a new saree for mom and mom was happy. He dared to ask, 'Mom, who named me 'Khushi'?' 'A name is a name, what is the meaning of it?' 'But tell me who kept it?' My friend came when you were born. He says if you are a Capricorn, then keep your name Khushi…' Mom would sometimes say, 'You are like a fool!' And most of the time his state of mind remained the same. Just yesterday. His class teacher had kicked him out. 'Where is your attention? Your notes are never finished.' The whole class was listening and Khushi's eyes were dazzled. 'There is no need to pollinate. You deserve no mercy.' At home, mom used to say like this, when something broke because of it, 'Piluda sena pade hai? It works like a hoka, everything in the house comes free?' His sleep was broken and his leg pain also stopped. The song blared on the radio, 'Ma muze apne anchalmen chupa le…' he switched off so quickly, as if he didn't want to break the radio! She sat down again. Today it happened at that time and his legs were hurting badly. While coming, mom's words are the same, 'You still stand up and why do your feet hurt? When we were with you, we used to do a lot of work, but sometimes mom would quietly say, 'Jo, learn to be a little tougher. If we remain loose like this, we will be sad.' Thoughts flooded his mind. 'Mom, if you give me a little love, I can do anything. Sometimes say two kind words to me, sometimes lay me on your lap!' Once he asked Faiba, 'Is this my real mother?' He started laughing, 'Gandi, she is your real mother but she is just that. He does not get leisure from himself. Even though God has given him the avatar of a woman, he has given the care of a man.' That day she cried a lot in Faiba's lap! 'Mom, you grow a little less! I don't think I can do any good job after hearing your 'Doba-like', 'Senseless', 'Ghogha-like'! When I take up the work, my hands and feet start shaking, panic starts. My tongue starts rolling when I have to talk to an outsider. Keep the words 'unintelligent' in mind. If you sit down to read and remember these words, darkness will cover your eyes. Mom you never have time for me? You sit for hours with stock papers. You talk for hours on the phone with your sisters. I just stand in front of the mirror to apply powder and you say, 'no need to tap too much' but how many types of face cream do you use! Pull my hair and tie it and how you style your head! Sometimes, if you have a headache, you will say, 'Take medicine.' You never sat down and pressed your head. Let me go, I have never seen you press your father's head. How much I love to sing and you will say, 'Stop ragda and focus on studying.' It is nothing if you keep singing all day. Saumya roams outside all day. Pappaye is afraid of you. Mom can't tell you anything. No matter what you think, Mom, do it a little bit more! Mom called me 'Beta' once! O God, why did you give me such a cheerful mother? In Khushi's mind, the sea of ​​one thing started to rise again and again.. It was a sea of ​​thirst, unfulfillment. Hammers kept falling on Khushi's mind and when she got dizzy she fell down upside down. His head hit the iron cupboard and a trickle of blood spurted under his beard. When she regained consciousness, a big bandage was tied on her face like a buccaneer. She was looking all around. It happened, was this a dream or the truth? Yes, his head was in his mother's lap and mother was saying to him, 'Hey, I love you and that's why I made Shiro. eat So if, just open your mouth…Beta…Khushi!' A spring of words 'Beta…Happiness' erupted piercing the rocks carved into the heart and he soaked in it, falling into a blissful swoon.